Saved by GRACE
Another pic of us girls in our matching Buffalo plaid headbands at DisneyWorld because, well, how can I not?? You wanna know something nutty?! Emmy Rose just turned ten months old this month & I’m already starting to miss the baby phase!! The other night I was putting Em to bed & got to thinking on how fast they grow up. When a thought struck me... not for the first time this month. When my eldest daughter, Austyn, was her age, her daddy had already passed away. I was widowed. She was fatherless. My best friend was, what felt like quite suddenly, gone. My milk supply shut off immediately because of trauma. I never got to see my other baby with a daddy at this age... I never got to experience his help in late night feedings or his kind words after toddler-tantrum-filled nights. We didn’t get to share in the moments of first words or first shaky steps or first time meeting Minnie. While it would be so easy to grieve for what I lost in that life... I’m so crazy aware that it’s a choice. That I can choose, instead, to see the flip-side.
I can choose GRATITUDE, JOY, & THANKFULNESS. I can choose to live in the present moment & love in TRUTH.
Sure, I might have missed out on a heckuva lot the first time around, but this time... you better believe I’m not letting grief or sadness get the better of me. Instead, I choose to REJOICE. I count it ALL blessings. & I am soaking it ALL UP!! Can’t wipe this smile off of my face.